[kFoyauextlH]

Yeah they deleted most of my writing, sometimes even before anyone had a chance to read it. I was bullied on there and people were constantly abusing the report function on me as soon as anything was posted and mods wouldn’t read and would just straight up delete it and then PM me saying I was not wanted on the website and should leave. This went on from practically the beginning and they suspended me and banned me several times with no reason given until they finally completely banned me but then brought me back, as soon as I returned the abuse continued and the whole experience for me was really bad. It was especially annoying writing huge articles with my phone and posting them only to have them thrown in the trash and having no copy of them because of not being able to copy paste them and then when I requested from them to at least send me a copy of my own writing I painstakingly wrote I was told by The God-King that he would not give it to me or send it to me. So that is how I was treated and abused there.
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Also when people saw me verbally abused on the website repeatedly no one at all stood up for me, defended me, questioned it, stood against the wrongness, told them to stop. Just total silence as I got the sh*t kicked out of me. No God, No Man, No Spirit, No Ancestor, No Justice, No Defense, No Good. The lesson of life is Evil. I was told to simply take the bullying or leave. I never responded with insults or attacks, only friendliness and praise which was also deemed hostile by the violent maniacs. Humanity, if that is what you can call it, is utterly disgusting to me. Worse atrocities have happened around the world day to day moment to moment according to reports and still there is no hero or savior and nothing is done and the doers of evil and the perpetrators live long lives with health and families and friends and no repercussions whatsoever, deflowering and raping women and doing and getting away with whatever at all they please simply because they are favored by goid luck and the lack of any good in the world capable or willing to putting an end to them, thus making it evident that good has no real existence and none are really good. The best we can muster is the desire for the elimination of evilness.
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So this is the only forum I have been posting at these days for a while.

[kFoyauextlH]

If you learn any great skills like that it would be wonderful and beneficial!

[kFoyauextlH]

Haha that is so cool. I requested them to put it back up. They deleted so much of my writing for no good reason at all. The complete full length version and various other esoteric things I wrote on Wizard Forums were actually full of great information and ideas and references while being hypnotic and meant to loosen people up but were unfortunately rejected on websites dedicated to the Occult.

[kFoyauextlH]

Have they said what they are busy with? I have numerous things to do as well but since I type pretty fast with my thumb I seem to manage to write here a bit too, read lots, watch a number of things on my TV such as on Youtube and Netflix, cook, clean, shower, have breakfast, lunch, dinner, and snacks as well as dessert for example today I made this big mexican spiced beef and cheese pie thing as well as lots of popcorn, read some of those things I mentioned such as the Augustine book and the Dictionary of Philosophy plus writing all those things I did while still having numerous other things to do such as recovering from an injury by purchasing a new bed, scheduling a trip for some family to come here and have some important government paperwork to file.

[kFoyauextlH]

I thought that thread was great. Looks like just you and I can just carry this forum ourselves lol.

[kFoyauextlH]

Haha it typoed and made it my name is Rexby rather than My Name is Red.

I counted around 125 texts or so written above. Out of those I focus in chunks of activity on about 5 or 10 pdf files, 50 articles or websites, 5 or 10 books near me and then have them in groups like that but may go to other groups or chunks frequently on a day or mix and match among the groups of books which might be about 20 to 50 more frequently accessed than others.
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Well my main area of interest and study is the history and development and influence of ideas and notions and mentalities with a heavy or particular focus on ideas of the supernatural and religious and psycho-social constructs end their design and development such ass magic and magical thinking. That is what guides all the reading and what I am looking at or extracting from it all or anything, even if it seems political or poetic or fictional I am always looking for the ideas and where they came from and how they are influencing the writing and may influence the reader or are otherwise implied in the writing. I was searching that out in any forum I’ve visited as well or interaction with people. It seems like a pretty broad topic but it reveals lots about every detail of the way people think and interact with each other and how they interpret things aa well as how they might have been or could be motivated or manipulated.

[kFoyauextlH]

It looks like I type a great deal too and with only my thumb while holding the phone in one hand. I wrote this all out to kind of give an idea about my reading habits and the sort of stuff I read and I guess also how much I read overall.
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Yeah I think it is a method that develops naturally and it can be nice to have all of it jumbled like one big book or a larger overall theme. I could just read one at a time but I almost like how my mixing ingredients seems to inspire and add interesting facets to each.

[kFoyauextlH]

I look forward to seeing if you think of the term or find it or know about it based on how I described it above but not through the article of supernatural.

[kFoyauextlH]

Listing it all out like that I realized I read an enormous amount of stuff at around the same time period. I didn’t count all that listed above but it looks like a ton. I would say most of the focus goes into whatever is in the closest proximity, so the stuff on my phone including articles and papers opened in the browser and those books physically nearest to my head on the bed and pretty much in the order I wrote it all out, roughly. I read about 20 to 40 pages then might move to another and that is how I systematically go through so much. I can become sleepy reading 20 to 40 pages of material on the same subject just due to eye strain maybe or laying on the bed and reading. Switching subjects can help though I have at times read 80 pages and more depending on the material but it is important to me to really understand everything and not rush through or skim. I would love to read hundreds or thousands of pages of complex or sophisticated material at a great speed to get through all this stuff but I read these things at about a minute or two per page since I am reading carefully and may even go back and re-read occassionally ti make sure I have got it. In total though since I switch between books I read hundreds of pages a day sometimes probably but broken over a number of different texts.

[kFoyauextlH]

Yeah, it seemed a kind of unrelated thing to be in the article for the word supernatural in the first place.

[kFoyauextlH]

I am reading a ton too as always! Which leads me to my next thread! If you ever do find time to casually try to see if any of these statements remind you of anything each you can slowly and casually mention them over time as I would be very interested to see what might come up!

[kFoyauextlH]

Wow I found it in the most strange and unusual way completely unrelated to this just now.

I was reading about Idolatry on wikipedia and went through numerous links until it came to “supernatural” and the whole process of me finding it seemed supernatural too!

This sort of thing happens lots but its always crazy and amazing seeming. I wasn’t looking for it at all, wasn’t looking for supernatural either and never expected it to be mentioned there anyway but regardless, please don’t look it up that way as you might end up mentioning or knowing other things instead!

[kFoyauextlH]

Such a cool looking place! I’m a big fan of sculptures and moss and stone like that.

[kFoyauextlH]

They make you pay to get in? Wow. Still not too bad I guess compared to some prices here. Who did you go with?

[kFoyauextlH]

I comfort myself a little in the belief that I am not like I was before supposedly, what I was apparently doing a moment ago or was is now gone, so dead, and I will be alive wherever there is madness which is anything at all whatsoever since all things are unconditioned and baseless from the start.

I take some pride in the ability to die or change, but then again I might like to also be confident and fearless in the knowledge of stability and control and safety, the things a creature can never truly have except in ignorance.

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